Chapter 6: Understand the Context
Being so new to the bible, I would believe everything I read. Maybe we all do that? I am not sure but I tend to just throw myself into the picture and pretend it is me. If often leads me into trouble especially in such a spiritual book!
The bible is the only book I am aware that can change you. It can actually transform you. Did you know that if you took honey and added it to plants, it stimulates and helps them grow?
Well, in Psalms 119: 103, 103 How sweet are thy words unto my taste! [yea, sweeter] than honey to my mouth!
God’s word is ‘honey’ to our beings and needed to live in communion every day of our life. We need it to nurture us, safe keep us, defend us, guide us, cover us and keep us in line on a daily basis.
Living in fear? I think it was at this time, temptation and confusion would sink into my life as the attacks of the enemy began in my spiritual journey. The enemy was beginning to lose his grip on me and was trying to fight back very strongly to stop me from proceeding onto the path of faith. I could tell this was happening because I felt like I was being tortured at times.
I went and bought myself a bible at Chapters for added home protection, but I was wrong in thinking this way. God is our protection, not human physical things. The wisdom inside the bible protects me but the physical book itself is not the defense. Still, I wanted my home to be a safe place to come to know God and it truly was or at least in its process. Was I protected? God didn’t allow the enemy to do anymore to me as time had passed.
Often, I like to put myself right into the writer’s footsteps and I could tell you that I believed things in the bible that I probably shouldn’t have at the time. I even wrote things down as if I was being instructed. What do I mean by that? Well, if the bible told me to write something down, I sure did!
It is OK; you can laugh at that.
Bottom line is, I came to God as a child not knowing a thing. I would just read the bible verses and remember feeling these things on my body as I would read. I felt as if my flesh was changing and my body/spirit was beginning to be irritated as I would read. It was a very terrifying and unusual experience while this was happening. Regardless, I just kept reading it for some reason. I was determined and on a mission to get closer to God to clean up my life. I felt and know today that I was in a transformation stage, spiritually. It was a very foreign and supernatural experience.
The pastor I was speaking to whom was Protestant recommended that I read the Gospel of Matthew, Mark, John, Luke which is the books of the New Testament which focus on Jesus Christ. It is interesting how different faiths along the way had impact in guiding my relationship closer to Jesus. For the first time in my life, I was digging into God’s word pleasurably and began learning so many wonderful things. I would find it difficult to put the book down as I would lay in my bed reading. I truly believed in the power of God’s word and prayer to change my life. One night while living at my dad’s, I had a peculiar dream of my Grandpa who recently passed away at the age of 96. He was a great man whom I looked up to a lot. I hope to live a long life just like he did. He would read Bible verses in church and visit children at schools on weekdays to read to them as well. My mother would never listen to him but I always enjoyed listening to what he was saying because he was always going off about things of the past which I found interesting. No one is ever perfect but my grandpa did show me the importance of love and helping others.
I will try to give you a glimpse into this dream so perhaps you can see if through my eyes.
I was outside my dad’s house and there was a U-Haul truck in the driveway. I was looking towards the front door of the house from the street. Out came my Grandpa! He was much younger. I knew it was him, and he just looked at right me from the veranda, smiled, and said “Gianni, don’t forget your toys and things on your way out.” He then walked down the veranda steps, headed towards a brown Oldsmobile vehicle and drove off into the street. I kept trying to understand what that dream meant and perhaps I will never know. One thing is certain, God is not the God of the dead, and he is the God of the living. The dead know nothing. They are in deep sleep. Therefore, the dead are waiting to be resurrected, and I am just human to not know all the answers but I know someone who does!
Mark 12:27 King James Version (KJV)
27 He is not the God of the dead, but the God of the living: ye therefore do greatly err.
Genesis 3:19 King James Version (KJV)
19 In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.
Ecclesiastes 9:5 King James Version (KJV)
5 For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not anything, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten.
Ecclesiastes 12:7 King James Version (KJV)
7 Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it.
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I don’t know why, I get all these feelings inside,
I don’t know why, I get all these feelings inside,
I don’t know why,
Step with me please,
its all in my mind,
I know if I tried, to change the why,
and how I see everything, inside, I hide,
I tried to climb out,
step out of the box, on the clock
three tred ties, no lies, kinder surprise,
ease of my mind, take me to new heights,
set me upon a rock, please no more pain,
there is too much at stake, so much more to gain,
from life, ups and downs, rollers and waves,
help me to be brave, fill me with faith,
focus on things unseen, to believe in a better me,
and in my dreams, and how sweet they can be,
the sweet smell of love,
I don’t know why,
I get all these feelings inside,
I don’t know why,
I get all these feelings inside,
Look at me in my eyes, when I tell you that,
I love like no other guy,
sweet compassionate kind,
i wonder sometimes,
If I were to go up,
would he say to me,
would he be proud of me,
or disappointed,
because I tried,
Changed my ways,
unmarried man grows up,
thinking of only to please God,
and the reason, that I can’t stop,
Cause I look at that clock,
and know at the time, your up,
and on the stage,
the lights turn on, and I am on,
rocket ship, I headed straight up,
because I know whats on the other side,
remove my pride, I can no longer hide,
step on up, the real humble guy,
star flies across the sky,
just me and my wife,
I want to make this right,
don’t misunderstand my heart,
don’t misinterpret my art,
just me making my mark,
now I can say that I tried,
and you call me whatever,
I will even say, the real good guy,
because my intentions mean good,
and my list, I should.
I don’t know why, I get all these feelings inside,
I don’t know why, I get all these feelings inside,
I don’t know why,